In 2013, I've learnt what passive agressive meant, and that I practice this unhealthy way of expressing myself.
So with less than two months till 2013 ends, I have been actively changing my passive agressiveness. You may ask why and I can tell you all sorts of things like I've done loads of self reflection and shits like this. But the real reason was because of my boyfriend, Ken.
We have been fighting a lot within these few months and I will not deny that my passive agressiveness aggravated them.
(The issue following after this does not really have anything to do with me being passive agressive, but the double standard that I think I am facing from my boyfriend.)
He once told me something that I will never forget, he felt that I am trying to change him. I realised that it was true. I hope that he'll become the person he is before we are together. I hope he'll become less of a woodblock and just a teeny weeny more romantic.
But what's ironic is what he said after that. He hope that I can become less passive agressive. Wait, isn't he trying to change me too?
All these double standard is not making any sense. I can't hope that he will change but I should change myself for him?
I know I do not have enough evidence to support this, but just think. This will be a little something to ponder about when you guys encounter this in a relationship. When someone expects something from you and you can't expect anything from them, what does it entail? Giving? Loving? Generousity?
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